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Ok... This is gonna be kinda long... Last year my guy friend and I hung out together. WE were very good friend but he was very mannish. He's one of those people who'd be like "you look good but you'd look better in my bed" and stuff like that. Anyway, we had a few conversations. He asked me to be his first and so I was. So we were together for a while and then we had a falling out so we stopped messing around. So I practiced abstinence for about 7 months when I moved away but then we got back together in November and you know.... So the other day, I had a realization that I shouldn't be someone's cut buddy. I have too much going for myself. I have nice hair, a car, a nice body and high self-esteem. So I told him and he said ok. So we had a parting event and it was GREAT! Oh My Goodness HBCU ladies, I thought I saw the heavens open up but anyway, I think I have feelings for this man because you can't do what lovers do and not expect love feeling to grow. I think I'm so into him. And we're both going to the same college so that's another reason that I'm trying to run away before I get attached. Do I pursue him because I was his first or do I lay low and move on? Thanks in advance!