UPDATE...its funny how things end up...
Saturday was my Grandmother's suprise birthday party in QC. My mom had arranged for John to ride up there with me, because my parents have some kind of fear of my driving long distances by myself...::sigh:: anyways, I told her that I didn't want to ride with John, but to find out he had went through alot of changes with his job and with school so that he could ride with me. So I let him. When we get to riding I'm silent as a rock...not saying anything. And neiter was he. SO about halfway there he just bust out with a "What the hell did I do wrong Ashley" And I just look at him....then back at the road. About 10 mintues later he goes "I did something wrong, I can see it all over your face LaLa *that was below the belt because that's the pet name he uses for me*. You've always been able to talk to me, so why can't you now?" So I bust out with the whole story. How he takes me for granted and how he left me so he could go out and "explore" and I told him I was tired of the shyt. He was going to see what life was without me always being there for him.....
Whew.....
So he's sitting there in shock And at this point I'm getting misty eyed but in the back of my mind I yelling "Be A G, ****! MAN UP! STOP THAT DAMN CRYING" He goes" LaLa....Ashley...baby..."you are my everything. I'm sorry that they way I treat makes you think I take you for granted. Because I don't. You are the most precious thing that I have on this planet. And I wouldn't do anything to lose you. I figured you would always be the one that was by my side, my ride or die misses, my wifey....and I guess that means I don't act like I value you...but Lord knows I do. When I said I wanted to be free, it wasn't to persue other females...yeah I got freinds...but so do you. I'm taking some time for myself, because I just need to. I know that I can't be the man you need me to be unless I get some ****straight with me first. I need to get right with me and I need to get right with God. Please don't be mad at me, I need you..."
At this point I realize I need him in my life too...but I'mma let him go get himself straight however he needs to. I'm still going to back off about 50 feet, but at the same time, if he needs a shoulder or someone to lean on... I got him. Might be foolish...but that's how I am...a fool in love....God will get my thru this....Maybe God will get US thru this...
I was just about to ask what happened with your situation and I saw you posted it on here. I am glad that ya'll were able to talk and get ya'lls feelings and everything out on the table. At least he knows now how you feel, and you know now how he feels and it seems like you were happy with the results. All you can do is take it slow and leave it in God's hands. Everything happens for a reason, so if ya'll are meant to be (which it seems like ya'll are).....then ya'll will be in due time.
BAH! Love... :evil: *throws thunderbolt*
Aggie Highlander wrote: BAH! Love... :evil: *throws thunderbolt*
oh Larry cheer up....maybe love is just not for you ****...
Shoya_Star wrote: *PURE*Kindnezz wrote: AggieSweetie07 wrote: Aggie Highlander wrote: BAH! Love... :evil: *throws thunderbolt*
...my gurls kee, keisha and kenya got your back and bigups to god
:::tears welling up in her eyes::
I thought you guys where gonna be upset at me for not being tough...because in that car I was anything but. Fell apart at the seams as soon as he started using that damn voice (you know when there voice drops about two octaves)...oh well. Thank you guys. Like I said, this doesn't mean it ain't over. I'm still going to be a hard @$$ and show him whoes boss until he realizes his faults, but atleast he knows why I'm doing it know...
THANKS YOU GUYS!!!
